Life Is A Picnic; Eat It All Up
Muddling through my thoughts.
About Me
- Jessi(ca) B. Kim-Saad
- Like art, life is a process and a gift...and now that I know that, I am doing my best to find out what that means.
Jessi Bhatia Kim-Saad Makes Art
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Good night for now. Many more adventures to come!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Anxious Excitement
Today was a day to relish.
I spent the day sorting and organizing about 20 storage boxes(the 38gallon size) worth of fabric and notions with my amazing 89 year old grandmother, Oma. I don't think I can ever have a day like that again, and for that, I am grateful for the cathartic experience of sorting through my Oma's memories.
We sorted the fabric into large scale fabrics, floral prints, misc. patterned fabrics, and she had a story for nearly every piece we looked at. It was amazing. I cherish every moment I have with her. What a blessing she is to me.
Good day my dearest friend, farewell to the world in which I live--until next time.
Long Lost Writing
Good day my dearest friend, farewell to the world in which I live--until next time.
Monday, March 14, 2011
Sometimes It's Goodbye
ENTRY NEVER POSTED, now I feel I can. March 14, 2011.
This weekend, to say the least, was the weekend from Hell. Cosmo went missing and we still cannot find him anywhere in my parents' neighborhood in The Canyon. We searched every bush and path, river and glen and no Cosmo to be found. Cosmo was 13 1/2 years old, deaf, and could barely walk...so where could he be? Well, since he has been missing for two days now...there is only one conclusion that I can make about him...that he left home to die. My old dog Sheba did the same thing before she suffered from a massive stroke a week after she had tried to die alone. She ran away and hid in a ditch underneath the undergrowth of a storm drain...at least then we found her, but now with Cosmo, I think he was crafty enough and found an even better spot. He's been trying to die for the past few months. I guess he knew he was dying long before we could even fathom it. It's amazing the intelligence of an animal. In most pack animals, when the elderly animal or sickly animal is at the point of death, it will leave the pack in order to protect the rest of the family. I suppose that this is what Cosmo did for us. I only wish Cosmo had had a way to tell me earlier so that I could prepare for the aching gaping hole that resides in my heart right now. I have lost another part of my childhood. In death, he feels so far away, yet in my memory he is wrestling with me on the family room carpet and understands me when I command him in German and English. Twelve years of my life, so many memories and joys, the striking pain of losing his daughter Xena to cancer 2 years ago; it is difficult to sum up all of the love I have felt for them in all those years, and still. I cannot say when I will feel "better" because I believe that I have barely begun to cope with the sadness. I feel the emptiness my heart once again as another love, another friend, another companion is lost to me in death. I can have a single comfort in that God has a place for all of His creatures in Heaven and that according to the great film, All Dogs Go To Heaven...and cats too. :) I love you, my Cosmo. I know you are with Xena again, wrestling and snuggling. Give her kiss and a cuddle for me, as I am here and you are in Heaven. I shall see you again, one day.
Good day my dearest friend, farewell to the world in which I live--until next time.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Trying to get into a groove
Ephesians 3:20 (New Living Translation)
20 Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
How glorious to work with youth and show them how much God loves them and what great things they can do with God!!! It brings chills to my spine and goose-pimples to my arms; I am SO excited. Ever since I started college I had this urge, this desire, to fellowship with those younger than me and to somehow, through God's graces, make a genuine connection with them and provide them a safe place to talk and express themselves. Even though I did go to church as a youth, I did not have a strong group of friends or elders that could teach me what wrong and right were. However stained my past may be, Christ has washed it clean. I have no excuses for my past sins and they are confessed to Him and I need not worry about them now. I shall always be looking forward to what God has in store for me and for ministry. What great things I can accomplish with God! I cannot wait!
Goodnight my dearest friend, farewell to the world in which I live--until next time.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Times
Goodnight my dearest friend, farewell to the world in which I live--until next time.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Hopeful
There are times when I feel exhilarated by life.
There are times when joy spills from my heart like an overfilled chalice.
There are times when I am more angry than a bull in a fight.
There are times when I remember things more than I truly desire to.
There are times when I cannot bear to go on in that day, that hour, that very second.
There are times when I miss him more than I can stand.
There are times when I smile to myself cause I had a good day.
There are times when I am so sad that all I can do is stare into the distance.
There are times when I dare not say how I feel for fear of more pain.
There are times when I write myself insane.
There are times like now that I wish...
Goodnight my dearest friend, farewell to the world in which I live--until next time.