March 25, 2004

NEW BEGINNING


Contemplation...
Hesitation...
Something more is there...

Tranquil whispers
fill my ears
Nothins seems to
be as it appears

So anxious
at even the thought
So joyous
don't let this feeling stop

I can't believe
such troubles ended
When I'm with you
my heart feels mended

Listen to the fears,
of a lonely heart
Every time I think of you,
the pain just stops
Can this be, a new beginning?
Oh, tell me...

I'd never take you for granted
I'd never give you a reason to fret
I'd always care for you, the best I could
The way someone should..

So fearful
at what you might say
So solemn
am I when I pray
for a certain
chance of happiness...

I can't believe,
such troubles ended
When I'm with you,
my heart feels mended

Listen to the fears,
of a lonely heart
Every time I think of you,
the pain just stops
Can this be, a new beginning?
Oh, tell me...

Is this a new beginning?

LAST STAND (I wrote this to Chase...little did I know that 4 years later it would be directed to me)

May I be close, to you my friend?
I've got this feeling, that I may soon end...
This could be, the last time
This could be, my final stand
Just remember, the way that I am with you
Then it won't, hurt as much...

When I'm gone, don't shed a tear
When I'm gone, you should have nothing to fear
My love, will always be with you
That's the best, I can do...
This could be, my last smile
This could be, my last trial
Just remember, the times that we had
Then it won't hurt as much...

My body may die, but I'm still here
I'll forever, be with you, through your smiles and your tears...
My love will see you through..
That's the best I can do...
This could be, my last laugh
This could be, my last breath
Just hold me close, and we can say goodbye...

I'll cry for now, and then I'll smile
We're closer now than ever, it's been such a while
You're what I've searched for
I couldn't ask for more
Keep me in your arms, until I finally go...

Embrace me softly as I fade away
This will be, my final day
I wish I could stay, but I have to go
Our love will live on, didn't you know?
This could be, our final gaze
This could be, our last embrace
Just remember me and the feelings that we shared...
that love...beyond compare...

Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry
You know we have to say goodbye
You knew this day would come
So there goes my life, it's done
Just like grains of sand
And that's my last stand

AGONY( I wrote this some time in 2003)

I...
Didn't know that people were so cruel
You..
Just had to rub things in my face until it hurt
They...
Only know how to destroy, to hate, to lie, and condemn
We...
Were the only ones who didn't show the the agony

Why Don't You...
STOP the pain
STOP the lies
STOP the screams I hear inside...
STOP the worry
STOP the anguish
STOP the silent misery

Why Don't You...

I...
Once was able to dream of happiness
You...
Drowned my heart until nothing was left here at all
They...
Told you all the lies the Stupid want to think
We...
Kept it in and then threw it all away...

Why Don't You...
HEAR the truth...
HEAR the anger...
HEAR the real screams all around...
HEAR the sorrow
HEAR the death cries
HEAR the truth of AGONY...

The truth of AGONY...

Everyone...
FEALS it
HEARS it
BREATHES it
TASTES it
HOLDS it
LOVES it
Then pushes it all away
pushes it all away...

Why Don't You...
hold the AGONY...
Why Don't You...
Take it back...
Take back your AGONY
Be who you wanna be
Just take back your....

AGONY...